It's official, I'm pregnant. Around 9 weeks. And I'm just starting to see light from this black hole I've been stuck in for the last 3 weeks. I think early pregnancy is SO hard! I don't associate any of the first trimester misery with the baby. The baby comes months later, and I can't see or feel this baby, nor do I even know if it's a he or she! (Although it's safe to assume it's a he with my track record.) So I have a hard time admitting that a baby is worth the sickness right now, even though I'm always very pleased with my babies later on. And when my baby is born, it will be very easy for me to see the blessing that it was to experience the joy of pregnancy. And I'll be silly enough to forget all the pain and do it again! In the meantime... I survive... one day at a time......that's all I try to do.
Here are some things that have helped me survive these last few weeks:
1. Let dh (dear husband) do everything! I'm not kidding. I lay on the couch "busy" as I create life, and he does everything else. It's only fair.
2. Zofran- It's generic and cheap now. It helps me less than it helps other people, but I still think it's a good thing.
3. Phenergan- Even cheaper and easier to get than Zofran. Really helps with nausea. Folks complain that it makes them sleepy. I personally would rather sleep than face the reality of the first trimester. The only way they could improve on Phenergan is to make it last a few weeks at a time so I could "hibernate." I think I'd like that! Better yet, wake me on my due date wouldya?
4. Caffeine Free Pepsi- Did you know that Coca-cola was created as a good tasting medicine and then people liked it enough to drink? I don't know if that's true, but my sista told me it is. Whatever the case, cola syrup is soothing to the stomach. I'm not a caffeine drinker, so the caffeine free version suits me fine. I've been through two 24 packs of these, but my two year old has helped me out :)
5. Movie and Books- In past pregnancies I could escape into the bath for hours, and feel pretty good. That hasn't worked this time. My escape has been into movies and books. For two hours, if the movie is good enough, I find myself in a world of bank robberies or space adventures, and forget about how rotten I feel.
6. Naps, naps, and ummmm more naps? I have slept SO much with this pregnancy. It's amazing that I can sleep all day AND all night. I really believe that sleep is key in pregnancy.
7. I know I've said this before, but my mom taught me that when things were going down they weren't coming up. Candy, pretzels, goldfishies, whatever. I've kept things going down as much as possible. And consequently, our scale is now five pounds heavy. Dang scale.
So now for the fun part of this pregnancy: I got pregnant before I even tried! I went to the doctor to get some fertility drugs, and he told me to take a pregnancy test before I took the pills. It showed up positive! So I call in to tell them I'm pregnant and they ask me for the first date of my LMP las menstrual period..... 2/13/2007. Yes, I'm 19 months pregnant! No, actually I never had a period after my baby was born. I caught the very first egg! Me, the control freak, obsessive compulsive, usually finds out I'm pregnant the very first day anyone could humanly possibly find out, was almost 6 weeks along before I found out I was pregnant. It was pretty fun!
You see, right after I quit nursing I ordered a 50-pack of OPKs from saveontests.com. But for some reason they sent them to my old address. It took me a few weeks to get them. Well, I guess I didn't need those. So now they will be up for grabs as a giveaway. Stay tuned for that. And don't worry, even if you aren't ready to get pregnant now, they don't expire any time soon, so they will last until you need them.